Saturday, November 24, 2012

Off the beaten path

The sound of Giant Hornets
fills the air
around the 
Easy bake oven 
this morning...

i had forgotten that the Power boats would be out on the river today.
It's the second day of the American Power Boat Associations
Thanksgiving Regatta
here on the Colorado River.
We are at least a mile from it,
 as the crow flys
but it sounds like they're chewing up the dirt right outside our door.
We watched these boats plow and waffle over the
1.2 mile (sort of) oval watercourse
the first year we were here.
Nothin like stickin' a big old engine on a tongue depresser & watching it bob & weave in circles.
To each his own i suppose.
The silence is really noticeable when they cut thier engines.
One of the stray kitties has adopted our portch and decided that we are acceptable.
Most of the ferral cats here don't want any human contact but this one is the exception.
looks like we have a
Portch kitty
if it stays.
i decided to feed him and we are taming each other.
It's a beautiful shiney black, when it isn't covered in dust.
 "Dusty" for short.
So far he's allowing the birds to use their birdbath in peace...
they hop aside when he wants a drink.
i've given him a bowl of fresh water but...
He preferes the bird bath water.
Happy Bee-lated Thanksgiving everyone!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Absense makes the mind go Wander

snuck up on me this past July.
(NOT sneaky enough.)
Closed my eyes on
opened them to
BIG 5-0!
& i thought 40 was Over the Hill ?
has always been a goal of mine.
 For the longest time i didn't think i'd get here.
So, i have been out here wandering around: not all that aimlessly.
 Our search for a home here on this planet has taken us to some lovely places
and some sorrowful little Dumps.
We've discovered of course that One mans 'Dump' is another ones 'Lovely'.. and sorrow is furthest from our grateful hearts.
So Much to be Thankful for.
Not everyone needs a Silk purse to be happy;
Let the Sow keep her lovely ear.
(i quit carrying a purse when we drove truck in 95')
It's interesting beeing Married to a man who's had the joy of re-learning how to live again after a Brain Tumor that was "supposed" to end his life 30 + years ago.
Our path together these 19 years has been the best adventure i never even dreamed of ..way Beeyond anything i could have allowed myself to hope for.
B.B. does not think like others ... sometimes he shuts down and doesn't think 
"A thing".
He has to remind me of this sometimes...
 Since i was swamped by the Chemical sensitivities and resulting Fibromyalgia i have come to appreciate this fact of life more ...
What a glory it is that we DO in fact have the ability to think.. no matter how flawed our thought processes are at times.  
My love has been so very patient with my mindlessness of late; the starts and stops of functioning. i ask him, often,
 he does it and
 he reminds me that he has been there too.
We two, dwell together here,in perfect -clueless- harmony.
A match made in heaven .
It's almost too much to fathom.
 To all my sweet friends who have patiently been waiting for me to re-emerge
Thank You !
i  appreciate You.
Each One.
 Remember the Socks i hung on the wall because my feet were too Swollen?
They Now Fit!!
but i can't show you .....
because of this last battle with Chemicals/field burning,
over the last month in particular ...
(i think i've been sloughing off another layer of stored stuff )
... my skin is a Mess!
 a horrible reaction to mosquito bites..
 more fire ant attacks :<
 i haven't been ladylike
At All
& shaved my hairy legs.
 i'm just NOT going to,
 for a bit more.
i tried.
Nothing like the feeling of
off ones skin!
Sorry to be so graphic
but that's what it feels like.
But my Feet are almost back to normal
whatever that is.

NOT that anyone could ever accuse me of bee-ing
(or is that Nermal ?)

I'll bee catching up on things here soon hopefully...
all your lovely, lovely, lovely blogs.

So Much to Do
So little Time!

Be sure to:



Our ultimate freedom,
is in



(9)He who has an ear
let him hear.

(10)If anyone is to go into captivity,
into captivity he will go.
If anyone is to be killed with the sword,
with the sword he will be killed. 

This calls for patient endurance
and faithfulness on the part of
the saints.
Revelation 13:9,10

 I come like a thief!
Blessed is he who stays awake and keeps his clothes with him,
so that he may not go naked and be shamefully exposed."
Revelation 16:15

loves & Buzz's

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

God Bless the USA

Happy Independance Day!
Wherever We may be,
living life for God
and light
We are

the LORD is the Spirit,
and where the Spirit of the Lord is ,
There Is

(18)And We,
with unvieled faces all reflect the Lord's glory,
being transformed
into His likeness with ever-increasing glory,
which comes from the
Who is the Spirit. "

2nd Corinthians 3:17,18

Friday, June 15, 2012

Happy Bee Day


with You
Everything IS greener
...even the fence

l l l l l

Thank You for Bee-ing



Saturday, May 12, 2012

Go Merry Go

Nothin' like sittin' in one place ...
goin' round in circles!
If there were a such a thing as
this is the way it would go....
we just plop our butts down
 in one spot
and each day is like the whirl of this playground toy..
we wake up
go to sleep
wake up;
 still us ..
 still sittin'
in one place
goin' round in
if we die overnight or otherwise
we don't know it...
we just keep goin 'round.


Just bee-ing a Sillosopher!)

This is my favorite spot in a little roadside park out in the middle of the desert.
from here i can see the mountains
scan the brush
listen for Quail
the most important preparations for the day
.. or evening.
B.B. is a good sport and gives me a push sometimes.
i prefer to go backwards.
to feel a bit out of control.
just hang out & roll along
i used to ride my horse backward sometimes too.
i know all the reasons one shouldn't
but backward seems to be something i excel at.
When we drove truck
that was my talent.
Backing that rig into the loading dock...
sometimes down around corners.
Alley docks.
my challenge and my fun.
it was allot like sitting on a
Merry Go Round.
child's play.


Saturday, April 28, 2012

For the Unborn-

i don't know what to say...
... i used to ...
i too am indignant at this horrific Holocaust
the Abortion industry...
 This death culture...
..Our culture has bred into itself.



*for        our   Babies*







"There is a way
 that seems right
to a man,
but in the end it leads to

Proverbs 14:12

Tuesday, April 24, 2012


if i could share my heart in a song
 it would be
 in the notes of this music as much as
the words.
Do you ever feel
that No one knows you ?
Or wants to.

Sometimes the void that fills my soul
could hold the ocean
craddles the Titanic
at the bottom of its
cold silent

i was born with this feeling
created with it
so that i would realize
that no ocean...
no planet
no star
could possibly

Only hope


Sunday, April 15, 2012

"It just So happened"

the face of love
You wouldn't know by looking at,
 or talking with him
 my Sweetheart is a
year survivor.
He was diagnosed and treated in the most aggressive manner of the day for a
cancerous Brain tumor.
The treatment alone could have killed him.
But Thanks be to God
 this man stands today as a
 Testament to the will,
 Hope of the spirit
the Grace of God.
my goal is to get my Sweetie B' to sit down and share his miracle here ..
His favorite line is:
 "It just So Happened" 
the gist is his story of redemption:
How God sometimes has to get us laying flat on our backs
before we look up. 
Sometimes it's painfull
but it's always
in Gods timing and way.
The best thing we can do is to put ourselves in His hands.

i am so blessed that the
Love of my Life
was given the miracle of a new lease on life. 
 my new life began when we met and decided
our lives were meant to be shared
 as one.
& so i have been privileged to share in this miracle.
Still the miracle spreads
as i make the extra effort 
 to live each day
in a way that builds up
rather than tares down.
The pain from the fibromyalgia and the inconvenience of this sensitivity to chemicals sometimes drags me into a pit of negativity...
my Husband is
So sweet and patient with me,
 always bringing a sweet word,
 a silly saying
or just his knowing smile
& tons of prayers 
He's been through pain.. horrific pain!!
He's been through the
 "Valley of the shadow".
He's laid his life down at the feet of
and been given the
"Gift of another lifetime"
a New Creation in Christ.
& So
in my struggle to keep my mind on things above
i remember what this Dear man has gone through...
How can i be any less grateful?
 i get to wake up every day
and live it with the knowledge that
It just SO happened


is in Christ, he is a New





the new

has come!"

2nd Corinthians 5:17

Thanks for blessing me
with your visit here today.

& Buzz'z

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Thar Bee SNOW!

picture by John Gutenkunst for the Parker Pioneer

See That!
It Snowed on Sunday
at 4,131 ft.
or so.
These are the Whipple Mountains
on the other side of the Colorado river,
The California side.
It was an interesting site to see from our desert home
and This is as close as i want to get these days.

i never did like snow.

 It got chilly here too;
Rain and sun at the same time
but at least the rain settled the dust that had been kicked up last week.
We get lots of blowing dust here.

We were glad for the rain
it was good for our experimental garden.

i have Zucchini coming up in a pot
and chard,
lettuce and tiny carrots popping up in the box Sweet B' built for me.
We're going for broke this year...& built another, bigger raised bed.
Planted hierloom muskmelons
and will plant native squash that are said to do well here in our dry and thirsty land.
i hope to save seed in order to continue the process.
my rain barrel/bucket brimmed over with this storm so we're looking to install a larger vessle... Maybe Two!

The forcast is for more of what we're used to
Sunny & warm.

Hope all is well where You Are

 kare to join me in a Cuppa Aloe?



Thursday, March 15, 2012

The Origional- Lord Of The Dance

Did all of you know that  Donovan sang of
 "back in the day?
It's easy to forget these things under the flood of what Pop culture
and social media choose to pay attention to...
Sure most of us equate this singer with "Mellow Yellow"...
& "Jennifer Juniper"!  
OH yeah ...
"...then when the Hurdy Gurdy man came singing songs of ... "
The ultimate Psychedelic tripout whether one was stoned or not.

Hey!0  i was just a kid ... not a pothead at all and that one tripped me out!

i thought some of us older kids might enjoy knowing this song is out there by someone Not entirely expected. me anyway...
.    .    .

my father has been in the hospital again this week.
"Atrial fibrillation" is what i'm told.
who knows whats what with my dear Dad.
Mom & he have not been able to have their reunion as they wished...
both are in such fragile health.
Mom says Dad loves Jesus
& so
our trust is always in Our
Father, God;
looking forward to our heavenly family reunion, since earthly ones don't always materialize.
i'm unsure these days whether i will see any family members again.
Life is fleeting and everybody is so busy and/or poor...
making trips to see peoples isn't always possible.
We really can't know what a day will bring
can we.
Thank GOD... He does.

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for
and certain of what we do not see. "
Hebrews 11:1





. .

Monday, February 27, 2012


i love discovering things like this!
A classic poem i remember from
 'back in the day'.
Did Y'all know this poem was put to music?
By Donovan (Hurdy Gurdy man) no less..
how cool is this!
This is how life for me is these days ...
Jubjub birds




i must sharpen my 'Vorpal ' sword;

 of God
is living and active.
Sharper than any double-edged sword,
 it penetrates even
 to dividing
 soul and spirit,
 joints and
it judges
 the thoughts
 of the

 Hebrews 4:12

Happy Hunting my friends.

Friday, February 3, 2012

'Hog' wild

This is Buttercup:
answer to Punxsutawney Phil.

Buttercup is a groundhog that lives at the
Chandler Environmental Education Center
in Chandler Arizona,
Near the Big city of Phoenix.

Can you guess what Buttercups forecast for Arizona Is?


with a chance



Thursday, January 26, 2012

Artsy ...oh...fartsy:[

Friend showed me a cute jewelry project,
Hers was a very pretty necklace.
She showed me how to make it
...sort of...
and this is what came out of my first effort.
To me it looks like a crown of thorns around a Trinity of beads.
 Not very pretty.
The beads captivated me and i wanted to do something...
(i'll try again & see what happens)
Since i do not wear necklaces very often i decided this will go in a window to catch this glorious Southwest Sunshine streaming so warmly through our windows.
Not to brag .... but it's somewhere firmly between 70 and 80 degrees right now.
That's why i love this place and why we are here.
Sure Summers sizzle in the 100++'s
and i love it then too!

For my friends in the
Lone Star State:
i'm very glad to hear news that The drought in Texas may be on it's way out.
We had rain last week.
i still have not made it out to watch the Washes run
during these downpours.
Perhaps we'll live nearer one in the future.

Our yard is the only one with Green in it
since we are the only one's not using weedkiller.  
..B.B. bought me a neon green weed-whacker that matches my kitchen walls..
i Love it!!

oh oh

The Anti-bugg man just drove up 
across the street.
So much
for going out to enjoy
Beeing a
Weed Whacko!
are seriously looking at the idea of picking up an old motor home
& moving out to the
sooner than later.
The future
Perhaps it's time to go watch the 

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Grace & Mercy


A bazzilion years ago
in a land
that seems
Far Away...
i drove this road between home, that never felt like home
and college...
one of several attempts to finish with some sort of vocation or degree.
This is what it looks like today,
it looked much the same when i drove down it in my 62 Volvo pt.1800.
i was checking road conditions to see what kind of greeting we should expect should we make a run up to see family who still live up in this neighborhood.
i remember this spot in particular because my sporty little bucket of bolts, bailing wire & chewing gum was threatening to take a dump
Right here X.

i was going to follow through with a long desired dream of becoming a
horse trainer.
The college offered a course that was supposed to prepare a person for the business aspect as well as the business end of Horse Husbandry.
i learned more about Sheep, Cows, pigs and operating various tractors and farm equipment as the Horse program was on the decline the year i attended.
The advisers who promoted their 'Farm management program'
Declined to inform me of this fact.
For the most part i did enjoy being the oldest student living in the farm dorm with a mess of snotty nosed barely out of high school kids who
 of course
 Knew it all.

i learned
 Never: turn your back on a sheep...they're not as soft and cuddly as they look.
They're also not too bright...and when not acclimated to people... they're really tough to shepherd.
i never knew and animal to run away from feeding time but it was quite a sight to see a whole flock .... flock to the opposite side of a field..
it seemed even stupider to me to have to run around to that other side... and chase them back to the waiting piles of hay...but we tried waiting them out and they would not come to eat even when we were gone. Of course in the soggy conditions all that hard work racking, baling and hauling would be spoiled if left for long.
The farm students grew and processed all the hay used for livestock so we all quickly learned the value of a single bale of hay.

These ewes had been on range before our term to work them began in the fall.
All had been bred
and all would have just as soon stayed hidden out in the rough to forage but with lambing season due at the end of our first semester we had to have them in on pasture and supplemental feed to ensure
a healthy springy ...Spring for all.
Our farm manager knew about sheep and some of the other students knew about sheep.
 i knew
There was one person who Really Knew *Boom-mate*.
(*our laughter was explosive*, according to our co-dormies)
We spent many hours laughing Loudly..about the rediculous things in life.
College students and farm animals.
there wasn't much difference.
Nothing seemed to faze my Boom-mate ...not even our know it all young-uns who ignored her wisdom and obvious shepherding prowess.
One evening she warned that a number of ewes were showing signs of lambing...
the other farm students had better things to do that night than round up a bunch of unruley sheep.
They vetoed her call to bring them in from the field they were sharing with the cows.
 Before the rising of the sun 'Boom-mate' and i were awaken to calls from our early morning revelers
"come quick "....
"Your Sheep are dropping lambs like bombs!"
(Funny how they became OUR sheep at this inoppertune moment.)
indeed they were...
and like a bomber in the sky these skittish would-be mama sheep were hightailing it away from thier precious dropped packages.
The ever curious cows were mooving in to investigate the blessed events happening all over their field and the Ewes weren't sticking around to protect their babies.
He tends His flock like a shepherd;
He gathers the lambs in His arms
and carries them
close to His Heart;
He gently leads
those that have young.
Isaiah 40:11

Hindsight is such a thing isn't it?

Looking back i can think of a million things we
coulda/shoulda done differently.
 Wisdom pointed us to follow the one who had proven herself
a Shepherdess: my Boom-mate,
and we learned more about people and sheep that day than in the previous months all running in our own directions.

What a mad dash it was to find these little puddles of just birthed lifeforms.
All we could do at that time was to hope to match babies to Mama's
try to get mama's scent onto lambies so they could attach and recieve the all important colostrum ...first milk... that ensures a thriving, healthy lamb.
We didn't lose too many that day
or after as we moved them all into lambing stalls.
But we learned
the value of a single

When He saw the crowds,
He had compassion on them,
because they were harassed and helpless,
like sheep without a

Matthew 9:36

Friday, January 13, 2012

Wearing wall ornaments

i posted this picture of the goofy green socks my sweet Sister sent a while back...
i think for my birthday(?) 
OH Yes...
it was the 49-er post.

i need to go back to blogger school so i can finally learn how to do things like ..adding links to other Posts
Links to Other peoples lovely blogs i follow on the side bar.
(whatever that's called)
A while back
my bugbombed brain discovered, and latched on to:
* finding cool music videos and
*sending really crummy pictures to my Blog from our cell phone ...
so i kinda went OVERboard .. with That new knowledge for a bit.
Thanks for puttin' up with me!
i was able to take these sock 'ornaments' off the wall this week ...
it's finally cool enough to stuff my toes into socks...
AND...and ...and...
much Cooler is:
The edema has gone down even more this last month... 
i can fit these "Wild things" on my feet comfortably now!
in FACT i discovered quite happily that my favorite pair of running shoes are back to being just right.
(i sound like Goldy Locks;)

i STILL can't make comments on my own Posts despite attempts at several solutions. So...
here i go So-ing again.
(Perhaps i need to take up Sewing....again...
 i have a great old pre world war II sewing machine,
buried under storage boxes.)

The Year end stuff:
Christmas and Holiday bustle; did a number on my heart this year.
i wanted to go see peoples;
But they all live North or west where it's either too cold or too polluted for me to be half way able to cope with little things, much less the excitement of
catching up on SO much life.
Their lives have all moved rapidly forward  --->
Babies...New careers.. new boyfriends & Hubby's!
---->All that living.---->
As it should be.

i'm still somewhere back in a warp of time;
still not quite able to conceive of time passing.
Not sure if this is a Fibro/chemical thing
or just
Everybuddy is so Buzzzzzy!
i used to bee...
but when i look at everybody else it seems to me
i'm just going backwards



i've got my crazy socks and running shoes on now ...
Ha Ha!
ya better run peoples .... cause i'm gonna catch UP!


picture from:
Have you discovered this place
it'll trap you like a Real web for certain!

Thursday, January 5, 2012


Romans 8:26-27
26)In the same way,
the Spirit helps us in our weakness.
We do not know
what we ought to pray for,
 but the Spirit
intercedes for us
 with groans that words cannot express.

27) And he who searches our hearts
knows the mind of the Spirit,
 the Spirit intercedes
for the saints in accordance with God's will.

This was our reading this morning.

Can you just hear the Spirit taking up our prayers to God with

"Groans that words cannot express"

is just 

This also is one of the songs i sing
when i need to remember where i belong.
a lump
 of clay
to be
in the
of our



 We started into Genesis again
in the Evenings
and are going to try to keep to
 the Schedule.

4 chapters a day.

It's Not too late to Join us.

Come meet Melchizedek:
~King of Salem ~
Priest of God Most High.
Genesis 14:18

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Hinei Ma Tov Umanaim

 Today started Beautifully.
Hub-Bee & i popped out of bed, fed our waiting Ther-a-pets
after rounding Abbys up from her outside patrol;
Sat down for coffee and the WORD.
We got behind on our reading 'cause we read less than the required 4 Chapters a day to make the schedule, so we are just in the middle of Romans. 
We Did read EVERY day.. but  got so engrossed in study we took more time to really absorb what we were reading.
 *Have YOU ever read the Bible from Genesis to Revelations...
all the way through as you would a Novel?  
 in the beginning of 2011 we embarked on the "read the Bible in a Year" program and it has been SO illuminating..
Sure, My Hub is a Pastor...we've both read Gods Word...
How many times? Who knows?
it doesn't matter.
What does matter is that Each and every time it is read The WORD speaks to us in fresh and exhilarating ways...
almost as if we have not seen or heard some of it before.
"For the word of GOD is living and active.
Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart."
Hebrews 4:12

After We ate breakfast and my Love went off to work for the day i decided to listen to a radio program where the host does allot of commentary and just basic yammering on air.
The usual host was out because of the New-Year holiday.
The alternative host completely obliterated the usual programing that starts off with a wonderful Gospel song as a way to start the day,
 and played instead the usual secular fare the station is known for.
Not BAD stuff; just not the inspirational sweetness we have become accustomed to.
Before i knew what hit me i realized i was highly
sporting a
rather Rotten attitude.
BIG-HUGE change from the mornings lovely start.

i realized it was the company i was keeping.
Sweet as these radio folks can be at times; i've noticed they have a tendancy to find and dwell in some particularly negative mindsets.

Not that i expect the world to be all Pollyanna and all that...
Negative surrounds us in this world today... the news is not always happy, sappy slap your knee & do a jig kinda stuff
I Know This.
i Know the truth isn't always comfortable, sweetness and light,
and in order for "the Truth to set us free" we must often dig up the negative root and give it a good examination to determine what to do with it.
But i also know how damaging a negative attitude can be to us.
Chronic negativity can ruin a persons health ..
 heart and soul.
Ask me how i KNOW this
Y'all thought i was the epitome of a shiney new copper penny;
Yah i KNOW.
In this new year i will venture to tell a deeper version of my experiences.
 Negativity played a big role in the developement of my present health issues,
 though i want to make sure to seperate myself from it ...keep hurtfull things at bay...
Not Dwell within those walls again.
i have a new home now...
 a new environment...
We are living the fact that we are
"A New Creation"
LIVING it...
This is different than merely Acknowledging it.
i know and love many folks who have the same trouble as i was prone to for many years;
i will never poo-poo or negate thier feelings
even as i fight to remain within a place of joy & peace in my soul.

What i want to do for Them,
 for You,
for Us; This...
....As i did this morning...
Instead of just sitting there,feeling the steam coming from my ears
 i will get up
I will remember:
 "How Good and How pleasant
 it is For Brothers
(& Sisters)
to Dwell together..

... i got up,
 raised my hands,
and Abby & i  
danced around the living room coffee table...

"Nothing in all creation is hidden from GOD's sight.
Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account."
Hebrews 4:13

please join me
Brothers & Sisters.
For Our Sweethearts with Knee issues & other complications:

You can dance with your arms and hands in the air
stay off
your feet until your doctor says so.
You hear?

Because We LOVE You!


Happy New Year!