Where R we goin' ??

    Recently B.B. & i scouted out an area of this state we have been considering a move to for the better part of a year.  It's in a cooler region a little higher in elevation and has fantastic potential for filling our desire to have a small piece of dirt in which to begin efforts at self sufficiency.  We wish to have chickens, and a garden at least. My efforts down here  in this scorched earth are abbysmal, with the exception of a healthy Avocado sapling grown from The most bodacious seed we've ever found in a softball sized Avocado.

Solar power is something we favor since this territory is made for it. And we're looking into other off-grid "low-tech" alternatives to support our home.

Both of us have complimentary backgrounds that make such an endeavor a

no-brainer.

Bill is  great at maintenance and carpentry, He's very talented with wood and other materials, machinery and tools. i have a background in agriculture/horticulture, livestock and gardening. Through my child hood all the way to college no less.

One of my first 'Pets' was a Chicken.... Yeah... a little Banty hen some incredibly loving member of my family encouraged me to name "Dumplings" .... nice huh?<

i was 3 or 4 years old.

 i used to run off into the canyon with my dear little pet when the inevitable threat would come....

"We're going to have chicken and "DUMPLINGS"  for dinner tonite!"

To this day i am amazed i did not get eaten by one of the numerous packs of coyotes that lived in those canyons, but i would run away thinking my feathered friends life was in more danger at home.

Dumplings must have had a righteous Guardian Angel, i tell ya ;>

Oh Well,

Mud under the bridge.

i guess this is why i have such a warped sense of humor.

Any ways ... To the point....

We took the road trip and discovered wonderful opportunities to put our dreams into motion.  With a possible twist in the employment scene.

For both of us.

Not certain of a time-frame yet,

but .....

it couldn't happen soon enough for me!

In his heart a man plans his course,

but the LORD determines

his steps.

Proverbs 16:9

No Comment

For some Crazy reason i have Yet to figure out...

 i have not been able to respond to comments on This here blog of mine .... So i am sorry if it seems i've snubbed you, Dear friends.

 Also there are a few blogs i follow that no longer show i follow them... ??

Does that make a lick of sense?

i'm all but certain it's something i'm doing the wrong way or ??? Since most of my time is still spent in that Fog bank they now call Fibro-fog, it's difficult to know.

 What a weird state of mind it is!!

 i used to apologize endlessly for this state of Bee-ing i am often in, but anymore it's just The way it is... and i'm tired of beeing the "Sorriest" person on planet Earth...

Actually... i have my own planet now ... We call it Zupitorb... with it's two moons... Otip and Itorb.

So now, Is this Bizzaar enough for you?

Anyway that's where i spend a large part of my time ...

on Zupitorb or somewhere in it's orbit.

Zoning out.... with the kiddles... Abbys, Slippersdoodles & CocoMOco-coco.

My body stays on planet Dirt...

 i mean ... Earth.

Someones got to do the chores after all!))

It's not like i'm gonna disturb her Abbys-ness when she's doing her best impression of an

upside-down bearskin rug.

Anyways-ways....

Thanks Y'all

for 'Bearing' with me/us.

(pun intended;p)

i'll still comment on your Blogs if they let me...

:]

"Be completely humble and gentle;

 be patient,

 bearing

with one another in love."

Ephesians 4:2

La-La Blah-Blah land

Yes, i know ...

 i've been derelict in my blogging duties ....

What can i say?

?

Well....

guess it's time i thought of something .... Aye?

This is a Blog after all...

uh huh.

Yup

looks like it's s'posed to be a blog...

Uhm....

but then ...

maybe i misread ....

perhaps i'm mistaken.

.....

Perhaps this is a BLOB  ......

perhaps it's supposed to lay around in the middle of nowhere and just do what BLOBS  do?

Bee a BLOB...

did i say BLOB???

oh

Sorry i meant ...

"BLAH"...

Maybe it's a big BLAH!

Yeah...

No

 it's not ...

 :/

 i am.

it's me...

i am

 Blah...

This is the look i get from  Slippers-doodles as she listens in ... to my muddled thoughts ...

and yes she IS a mind reader.

It's much easier than you know....

when the mind being read is in a state of

BLAH.

i love these furrys.... they keep their eyes on me from sun-up to sun-down and their furry little buttz on me when darkness surrounds our tiny realm of wonderment.

Oh... sorry... sometimes it's just a furry paw stretched out toward me as i fight to find sleep or fight sleep.

either way i am always under "Watch and See"...

it's their occupation in life...

to keep watch over their peoples

and see to it that we carry on with daily living to the best of our abilities,

no less, no more.

Actually More is always the goal in our household

More crunchies, More open windows, More chin scritchy's, catnip micey's, Bottle top twirleys,

Bellymus-whampamus,

It's all well & Good .

Since actually...

my la-la blah blahs are all i have left in me after our daily tasks,
plus,

 the good news here;

besides extra special attentive caregiving Furrys Extra-ordinary efforts....

We have added Bike riding to our daily's...

Yes,

Sweetie Bee found a replacement bike for me after the other got stolen >:[

and i am now enjoying outings almost every day.

Plus,plus, we found a used stationary bike for me to use when my head is too "swimmy" to stay upright on the new  bike...

So

it's not like i've been doing nothing...

( really Now ;} )

Monsoon has rolled in ... one big-huge gully washer to the next ...
with this

 & the summer heat,
 it is HOT & Muggy ...

BLAH!

But it's still SO Much better here:)

Psalm 107:35

 He turned the desert into pools of water

and parched ground into flowing springs;

 there he brought the hungry to live,

and they founded a city where they could settle.

"and all God's people said...."

Amen!

:))

Song of Songs =17 years

My Lover is radiant and ruddy,

outstanding among ten thousand.

His head is purest gold;

 his hair is wavy and black as a raven.

His eyes are like doves

by the water streams,

washed in milk,

 mounted like jewels.

His cheeks are like beds of spice

 yielding perfume.

His lips are like lilies

dripping with myrrh.

His arms are rods of gold

 set with chrysolite.

His body is like polished ivory

 decorated with sapphires.

His legs are pillars of marble set on bases of pure gold.

His appearance is like Lebanon,

 choice as its cedars.

His mouth is sweetness itself;

 he  is altogether lovely.

This is my Lover, this is my Friend,....

Song of Songs 5:10-16

We were married on June 4th 1994

At the church of the Nazarene.

Our good friend  Pastor Ron officiated

and observed that our ministry & lives

would

"Color outside the lines".

My father told a wild tale about Canons

His father advised..

"When you get to the fork in the road ... take it".

No truer prophesies could have been uttered.

We spent our first year driving truck for Cannon Xpress.

We've taken Many "forks in the road"

And driven into so many sunrises and sunsets ...

remembering that

ministry

is

coloring on the outside.

Only God can fill the inside.

i Thank God for filling my heart....

 with So much Love i could set off  Canons without need of a match....

because You

my Dear

Sweet William

my Bill-billbillbill bill bill...

My one and only

Sweetest

 of the Sweet Bee'z

Are

my

Match.

Thank You for Loving Me

for 17

Song of Songs Years.

 I AM MY BELOVED'S

MY  BELOVED

IS MINE

i Thank God

for

You!

WaterMelon Wars

The WaterMelon wars have begun again.

 & We B's are SOoo happy !

Prices have come down to a place we can now enjoy these delectables more often.

Between the new Walmart & Safeway... and our favorite local store Basha's;

we can usually find

some really

good

 prices.

Before the prices started dropping for the season i had asked one of the Produce men

if he knew when the "Watermelon wars" would start up again...

he leveled a perturbed glare at me... >://

"Just HOW do you think these stores can survive AND pay their employees if they keep cutting prices on every thing??"

i was low on snappy come backs so i just slunk off feeling like a whupped puppy but wished i had remembered to quote that old saying  "a fast nickle will beat a slow dime anytime"... or something to that effect. i can't remember the exact quote..

but i DO understand this gentle-mans point... peoples need their incomes ..

 It's getting to be the time of year when things slow down where Hub.B. works now ... and they offer people the chance to go home early... Soooo.... we Bee Savin' our nickles & dimes furr sure...

By the way.... When we first came here...money was really tight.... we did allot of belt tightening so to speak...

but Some Dear, Lovely person decided to help us and paid several months of our gas bill ...Anonymously.

Rumor has it that this person or persons has done this before for other families who were going through  similar transitions as we did when we moved here.

WOW!

The Lord really has blessed us BIGGY time here... and there.... Wherever he moves us though it's been difficult and not always as secure as we wanted... He always sprinkles big and little blessings amongst the trials. Sometimes we find ourselves giggling at ourselves for feeling so insecure, 'cause

He'll pop something into our day that would otherwise seem so random.

but ... it's not random at all.

Nothing God does for us is Random...

even the uncomfortable situations are very much a small tile in that very large mosaic that he is artfully placing our story within.

kind of like a juicy slice within a ripe watermelon

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit"

Romans 15:13

Springing Spring-green

It seems to me that there's an awful lot of Spring greens springing up around the country this year!

Not just in Natures schematic either.

When we moved into this tiny trailer house we promised ourselves to paint the kitchen walls over from this lovely hue of green

to a tamer color, creamy white perhaps ?

but....

2 plus years later .... our walls are still springing out at us 1st thing with the morning light.

No matter how rigormortized my body feels... how out of sorts my fogged out mind is, i still cannot help but smile and giggle a bit at the sight.

More than this though ... whenever we go shopping lately we've been finding all sorts of merchandise that's sporting the same color!

Fortunately for my sweetie B.B. i understand our budget does not include re-stocking our kitchen with All these funny, lovely new fashionably springy things.

Look

a lovely dutch oven !

who thought of such a thing?

 How fun is this?

Hey... Thanks to all my Blogger friends ... even those who don't know it yet....

for sharing all Your lovely uplifting thoughts and pictures.

" A cheerful look brings joy to the heart,

and good news gives health to the bones. "

Proverbs 15:30

Thank You All for inviting us into your lovely lives and hearts Springing with the newness of life ... 
Now you know....you are good for the heart and bones!)

You are Awesome! 

forgive me please

Please forgive my indiscretion....on a former post.

Thank you to those who commented and offered prayers...

You are truly Dear and appreciated.

i have much to learn in this world still...

Awakening from this "Coma" has been befuddling to me and i still lose a sense of perspective for where i am in the scheme of things.

This blog is not meant to be an expose' on anyone but on a few things that have been close to my experience

re-emerging into society as it were.

At this point i am wishing to go out into the desert....to disappear for a while... but it's unlikely.

 i am again feeling unfit for human fellowship these days as i did when my life began to spiral down the rabbit hole a few years back.

i guess there's always been a large part of my soul that has never fit in with what others take for granted as the norm.

my own humanity has always been a discomfort... the flesh does not fit the spirit. The body is so limiting and cumbersome.. and i guess i'm just tired. it's o.k. really ... i'm used to this. . i accept it...

 i am Thankful to God... for this gift  ... the breath of life, even when it's hard to keep it up.

 i am sad that i can not bring others into communion with our Father... ABBA...

 that my witness for Jesus is so lame...

my words inane and unmoving.

i wish more than anything that my words could express what my heart has come to know and Love in the powerful grace and mercy of  this Creator who made us for His fellowship.  

He's not this pretend, brain caused fantasy but a heart rendering Being of such beauty and winsomeness beyond the imagination of our limited realms.

 my Words cannot communicate sufficiently the truth that is this one:

This Alpha & Omega...

Beginning and the End....

The Way, Truth,  Life.......  Life.

The Word.

 For as long as i can remember, my heart has been torn to shreds over this rift humanity has chosen to feed into... it is in fact what precipitated the illnesses that overcame me... the pain of separation ... seeing it in myself as well as the rest of humanity. Being faced with my own insufficiency, lack of meaning in any sense.

Nothing i have said or done has mattered in the least. 

i wanted to share my love for God with the world... knowing the world has already rejected it's creator in favor of self -creation...self seeking...self destruction.

We are not interested in how we fit into His-story... but how he fits into ours....

we limit Him like a tiny Jack-in-the Box that we control with a wind up mechanism... each time he Pops up to surprise us we quickly shove Him back down in the box, never really taking a look at the gift He holds inside a universe we cannot fathom.

i'm sorry

He's not in the Box .

Thank You for your love and patience. 

Thank you for being there for me. 

For your prayers and encouragement.... it means more than i can say.

Thank You Jesus

for Loving your children even when we're going through the terrible two's.

for 2,000 + years even:(

"I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it."

 Luke 18:17