Song of Songs =17 years

My Lover is radiant and ruddy,

outstanding among ten thousand.

His head is purest gold;

 his hair is wavy and black as a raven.

His eyes are like doves

by the water streams,

washed in milk,

 mounted like jewels.

His cheeks are like beds of spice

 yielding perfume.

His lips are like lilies

dripping with myrrh.

His arms are rods of gold

 set with chrysolite.

His body is like polished ivory

 decorated with sapphires.

His legs are pillars of marble set on bases of pure gold.

His appearance is like Lebanon,

 choice as its cedars.

His mouth is sweetness itself;

 he  is altogether lovely.

This is my Lover, this is my Friend,....

Song of Songs 5:10-16

We were married on June 4th 1994

At the church of the Nazarene.

Our good friend  Pastor Ron officiated

and observed that our ministry & lives

would

"Color outside the lines".

My father told a wild tale about Canons

His father advised..

"When you get to the fork in the road ... take it".

No truer prophesies could have been uttered.

We spent our first year driving truck for Cannon Xpress.

We've taken Many "forks in the road"

And driven into so many sunrises and sunsets ...

remembering that

ministry

is

coloring on the outside.

Only God can fill the inside.

i Thank God for filling my heart....

 with So much Love i could set off  Canons without need of a match....

because You

my Dear

Sweet William

my Bill-billbillbill bill bill...

My one and only

Sweetest

 of the Sweet Bee'z

Are

my

Match.

Thank You for Loving Me

for 17

Song of Songs Years.

 I AM MY BELOVED'S

MY  BELOVED

IS MINE

i Thank God

for

You!

WaterMelon Wars

The WaterMelon wars have begun again.

 & We B's are SOoo happy !

Prices have come down to a place we can now enjoy these delectables more often.

Between the new Walmart & Safeway... and our favorite local store Basha's;

we can usually find

some really

good

 prices.

Before the prices started dropping for the season i had asked one of the Produce men

if he knew when the "Watermelon wars" would start up again...

he leveled a perturbed glare at me... >://

"Just HOW do you think these stores can survive AND pay their employees if they keep cutting prices on every thing??"

i was low on snappy come backs so i just slunk off feeling like a whupped puppy but wished i had remembered to quote that old saying  "a fast nickle will beat a slow dime anytime"... or something to that effect. i can't remember the exact quote..

but i DO understand this gentle-mans point... peoples need their incomes ..

 It's getting to be the time of year when things slow down where Hub.B. works now ... and they offer people the chance to go home early... Soooo.... we Bee Savin' our nickles & dimes furr sure...

By the way.... When we first came here...money was really tight.... we did allot of belt tightening so to speak...

but Some Dear, Lovely person decided to help us and paid several months of our gas bill ...Anonymously.

Rumor has it that this person or persons has done this before for other families who were going through  similar transitions as we did when we moved here.

WOW!

The Lord really has blessed us BIGGY time here... and there.... Wherever he moves us though it's been difficult and not always as secure as we wanted... He always sprinkles big and little blessings amongst the trials. Sometimes we find ourselves giggling at ourselves for feeling so insecure, 'cause

He'll pop something into our day that would otherwise seem so random.

but ... it's not random at all.

Nothing God does for us is Random...

even the uncomfortable situations are very much a small tile in that very large mosaic that he is artfully placing our story within.

kind of like a juicy slice within a ripe watermelon

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit"

Romans 15:13

Springing Spring-green

It seems to me that there's an awful lot of Spring greens springing up around the country this year!

Not just in Natures schematic either.

When we moved into this tiny trailer house we promised ourselves to paint the kitchen walls over from this lovely hue of green

to a tamer color, creamy white perhaps ?

but....

2 plus years later .... our walls are still springing out at us 1st thing with the morning light.

No matter how rigormortized my body feels... how out of sorts my fogged out mind is, i still cannot help but smile and giggle a bit at the sight.

More than this though ... whenever we go shopping lately we've been finding all sorts of merchandise that's sporting the same color!

Fortunately for my sweetie B.B. i understand our budget does not include re-stocking our kitchen with All these funny, lovely new fashionably springy things.

Look

a lovely dutch oven !

who thought of such a thing?

 How fun is this?

Hey... Thanks to all my Blogger friends ... even those who don't know it yet....

for sharing all Your lovely uplifting thoughts and pictures.

" A cheerful look brings joy to the heart,

and good news gives health to the bones. "

Proverbs 15:30

Thank You All for inviting us into your lovely lives and hearts Springing with the newness of life ... 
Now you know....you are good for the heart and bones!)

You are Awesome! 

forgive me please

Please forgive my indiscretion....on a former post.

Thank you to those who commented and offered prayers...

You are truly Dear and appreciated.

i have much to learn in this world still...

Awakening from this "Coma" has been befuddling to me and i still lose a sense of perspective for where i am in the scheme of things.

This blog is not meant to be an expose' on anyone but on a few things that have been close to my experience

re-emerging into society as it were.

At this point i am wishing to go out into the desert....to disappear for a while... but it's unlikely.

 i am again feeling unfit for human fellowship these days as i did when my life began to spiral down the rabbit hole a few years back.

i guess there's always been a large part of my soul that has never fit in with what others take for granted as the norm.

my own humanity has always been a discomfort... the flesh does not fit the spirit. The body is so limiting and cumbersome.. and i guess i'm just tired. it's o.k. really ... i'm used to this. . i accept it...

 i am Thankful to God... for this gift  ... the breath of life, even when it's hard to keep it up.

 i am sad that i can not bring others into communion with our Father... ABBA...

 that my witness for Jesus is so lame...

my words inane and unmoving.

i wish more than anything that my words could express what my heart has come to know and Love in the powerful grace and mercy of  this Creator who made us for His fellowship.  

He's not this pretend, brain caused fantasy but a heart rendering Being of such beauty and winsomeness beyond the imagination of our limited realms.

 my Words cannot communicate sufficiently the truth that is this one:

This Alpha & Omega...

Beginning and the End....

The Way, Truth,  Life.......  Life.

The Word.

 For as long as i can remember, my heart has been torn to shreds over this rift humanity has chosen to feed into... it is in fact what precipitated the illnesses that overcame me... the pain of separation ... seeing it in myself as well as the rest of humanity. Being faced with my own insufficiency, lack of meaning in any sense.

Nothing i have said or done has mattered in the least. 

i wanted to share my love for God with the world... knowing the world has already rejected it's creator in favor of self -creation...self seeking...self destruction.

We are not interested in how we fit into His-story... but how he fits into ours....

we limit Him like a tiny Jack-in-the Box that we control with a wind up mechanism... each time he Pops up to surprise us we quickly shove Him back down in the box, never really taking a look at the gift He holds inside a universe we cannot fathom.

i'm sorry

He's not in the Box .

Thank You for your love and patience. 

Thank you for being there for me. 

For your prayers and encouragement.... it means more than i can say.

Thank You Jesus

for Loving your children even when we're going through the terrible two's.

for 2,000 + years even:(

"I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it."

 Luke 18:17



No foolin'!

No April fools joke here in the Desert!

This Thermometer is in the SHADE!!

It IS over 100 degrees today!

WOO HOO!!

i LOVE This place!!

Planted Zucchini yesterday and discovered that our gorgeous sweet Mexican Avocado seeds are sprouting in the pots i planted them in a Month ago! i thought the cooler weather we'd had might have clobbered the poor dears but ....  they're just beginning to peek out of the dirt...now they have excessive heat to deal with! Yikes!! Such extremes we have here. My camera is not able to get a good picture of the little dears yet ... but it won't be long now.

I hope they keep growing til we find a piece of dirt out in the desert to plant them in, as well as our home. Do you think our home will grow big and healthy ?? 

I do... Oh i DO!

The whole city has been spraying bug & weed killers all over Tarnation here. Our neighbors hire the Pest control and my Hub B. says sales on all those chemicals to kill off critters and their groceries(weeds) has gone through the roof!!

 i worry about our avian friends who rely on bugs and wild weed seeds for sustenance and fortification of their diets. Haven't seen Roadrunner since the spraying started in force. ..but rumor has it that a certain lady who used to feed him raw hamburger wads has moved away, so perhaps He's found another source of goods...

i haven't been able to enjoy the great outdoors as much as i'd like because of the Toxins being sprayed all over ... but i still feel better here than i did in other places & i notice i feel much, much better when we spend a day out in the wilds away from city stuff. So, Some day we'll find just the right spot of dirt in which to plant & invite all the birds, weeds and Buggs that are being fumigated out of the cities.

We planted sunny Yellow Marigolds with the Tomato & Zucchini to help dis-invite some of the more ravenous buggs and invite the Good guys.... like BEE'Z !

 Happy Buzzy days!

 Welcome.......Summer???

Maybe i Am an April Fool??

It's up to 102 now!!

(says the digital gage)

No foolin!!

Big Bird

Another fine example of  how crummy my  camera is!

Ah well.... life is funny... sometimes the things we want to share come out kinda fuzzy in translation. So Here's another fuzzy.

i have been excited this week because this Hooded Oriole is enjoying our feeders on his stop over from somewhere South on his way up Northwards, presumably... perhaps he'll hang around a bit? The lovely splash of Orange-yellow outside my window is like our own personal spot of sunshine darting about.

We may get a Good camera after our tax rebate... Yes ... the Gov. "burrowed" a bit of our money this past year ... so now we get some of it back!

i think a decent camera would be justified.

So....  do you have any advice on a good, reasonably priced camera?

One that translates well Here?

i see Such lovely Photo's out there.

i have been a bit sad these days. So i'm Thankful for my Blogger friends who offer such cheerful words and pictures.

Like this lovely bird (really... he's so bright compared to this photo) i come to these windows on Your worlds and am blessed by your splashes of Son/sunshine.  

i appreciate these So Much! 

Perhaps this sounds odd, but, i am also Thankful for those of you who are able to share disappointments here... knowing we are not alone, is a comfort. 

Not all our trials are exactly the same, i know, but i appreciate being able to offer prayers up for my friends... to in some small way help "carry one another's burdens". This helps me, to not be always thinking of myself. i believe this is good. 

For what it's worth .... i pray daily Blessings for All of you!

i know Jesus loves You more dearly than my words could express.

it's why B.B. & i read His words every morning.

Do You?

Hubby & i read Isaiah 45 this morning

i love verse 9

about the clay arguing with the potter..."What are you making?"

Romans 9:20,21 also speaks of this Potter/clay relationship

"Why did you make me this way?"

Boy

have i been feeling like that bratty lump of clay lately.

i just really wish God would let me In on his plans for me sometimes,

it's Really hard to "Be still &

 wait, wait, wait."

but i keep remembering that  His word says:

Ecclesiastes 3:11

"He has made everything beautiful in it's time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

So, today i am grateful for the windows,

the visions of beauty

out there,

the hopes for beauty shared. 

Found beauty,

Hopes,

Dreams,

Eternity set in our hearts

shared and noted.

Thank You

All. 

from my fuzzy, buzzy heart to Your sweet Hearts!

86'd

Yup ...it's 86 degree's here in the Desert Southwest.

And ... a stinkin' virus buffaloed me and i thought i had been 86'd from all things virtual..... no Velocitraptor taming for me!

for eons!!

Hey but it's all just fine & dandy by me ... being here in the desert has been good enough for me i just thought it was a good opportunity to take on the world.

Ha!

First mistake was to accept a job offered .... Not really a mistake... just a miscalculation on my part... Apparently i'm Not quite ready to dive back into the pond of life with all the lovely smellin' peoples.

What was amazing to me was how everybody is out there saying there are no jobs ... yes i know it's true ... but i was not really looking for a job... it came looking for me!

Had my wimpy body been able to cope with the chemical soup the world is bathed in ... i would have loved to keep this job.

but once again i had to slap my inner desires aside and accept the outer reality...

*See that BIG-Bird in the upper corner of the picture....it came by and popped my tiny Hot-air balloon... so i had to end That flight a little sooner than i hoped;>

But OH... the view was lovely while it lasted.

Hubby's new job is going along just beautifully... so we are o.k. financially ... we've never really worried about money stuff anyway..... but ... i have always enjoyed putting my efforts into things.. i like trying out different occupations... slipping on another type of hat ... so they say... put myself into another persons shoes...

have i worn out the cliche's Yet??

It  seems the virus wasn't the problem i thought it was... and after my head cleared i was able to 86 the stupid thing, til next time i guess. When another one decides to flop by like Big-Bird and poke another hole in my bubble head.

They say what doesn't kill you will make you stronger....

is that Stronger Smelling? 

or.....

Please... i've had enough overload for the month...

Oh Yeah...

i discovered that Zinc oxide helps keep stinky armpits at bay.

at least for me.

No Fragrance please.